4 years of Happy

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY DAVID:)

The first Picture I ever took of him.

Today is our 4 year anniversary. Yea, I know right, its a little surprising for us too! When you are truly happy and laugh a lot of the time you don't notice the time that flies by. That man you see pouring a glass of wine would in a short 9 days would be my husband. He took me on a picnic for our first date. He was sweet, funny (as funny as Germans can be) smart, and in a odd way familiar.

 Something we talk about all the time around this time of year is how much our hearts knew one another. When he walked into that room, I swear my heart just about stopped a few beats. He said when I smiled his did too. 

Marriage isn't easy, but being married to him is. Not to say we don't have our moments. I mean come on, I'm Black/Spanish and he's German lol But man is it worth it at the end of the day ;) 

I love him.

That's all I can say, he's everything and more that I've ever wanted in a friend, lover, partner, and dad to my son. I look forward to many years of cheesiness, awkward moments, and glasses of wine.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MY LOVE.

I'm cheap...

This woman right here needs a new camera.

I have this sad excuse for a camera and the poor thing is about done. I see all my friends and family take such beautiful and focused pictures, but when they see my pictures they think to themselves..."is that a finger or bird?" Yup, my pictures usually are either out of focus, and finger got in the way, or wasn't timed properly cause my camera decides to flash and then take the picture when it's good and ready...

But my biggest problem is that I'm cheap! Cameras now days are expensive! I want a really nice one that will last me a long time, but dang. I hate looking for one cause I get upset when the guy behind the counter gives me the "I know you got money, quit being cheap" look after I ask how much it is...

How much time will I serve if I steal one?? lol  

Slow down

I don't think I can say that enough.

All I want is for time to slow down, even just a bit. I wake each morning with a smile on my face cause I see those blue eyes look back at me but then I grimace knowing that another day just came and went. David continues to reassure me saying that everything is fine, and to try to enjoy the time we have left together. I'll be honest: I do smile and say "ok" but when he isn't in the room I do one of those zone-out moments and think.... and when I think its usually not a good thing I know how that sounded... but when he walks back in I smile, kiss him, and take another picture. Yes, I've been taking pictures like crazy again, but I promise not to frame them all.

 just a few(:

Summer Please?!

Summer 2011:)

I thought I'd never say this, but man do I miss summer! The state of WA is my type of whether pattern. I love cloudy, rainy, and foggy... (I'm odd I know). I personally don't enjoy suntan lines and the sun in general. I HATE bugs and being hot, but when your kid looks this happy and relaxed with a bottle of water, shorts, and sandals you can't help but miss it. I'll just invest in sunblock, sunglasses, long sleeve shirts, and possibly an umbrella. Lets do this!!

DEPLOYMENTS

We made it through our first deployment...

The countdown has officially started. Just a few short weeks, the man that I call "honey" "babe" "Snaily" and many other nicknames is about to leave for another deployment. The first one was rough. I just had a baby, and was terribly alone. Husband got shot at every other day, Had his striker blow up on him three different times, and saw things that he still can't talk about. 

I'm scared... really scared... but its hard to talk about it with him. He has so much on his mind to get done that the last thing I want to do is put my stress and worry on him. I want him to come home safely. He's the strongest person I've ever had the pleasure of meeting, but I know I can be just as strong. He just happens to be the glue of this family, the calm one, the person we look forward to seeing walking through that door. We can do it, just don't want to. 

It amazes me that we are a happy couple/family. The Army has a sick sense of humor. We happen to be a couple that rarely argues, has a good time, enjoys each others company, and overall has a connection that works. Yet here we are about to be separated. Then there are couples that argue every day, publicly say negative things about the other, yell, cry, threaten to divorce every other month, but they get to stay together as a family for long stretches of time (I'm talking years here) I don't want to judge other couples, but its hard not to when on FB all you see is the dirty laundry they don't mind sharing...

Everyday he comes home, more and more "items" are brought home to pack and prep. I just smile and give him kisses cause we have this odd understanding of what it all means. We don't need to say much, just glance at each other. And when our son gets into some of the equipment, I can see on my husband's face that it hurts him to know that time is winding down and our son has no clue. Damn.... it really sucks... I keep telling myself to wake up each day and try my best to enjoy it, smile, and kiss him. Hug him as hard as I can. Tell him I love him, that I need him, and want him near me...